thanksgiving in july

it occurred to me over the last few days- in spite of all of my complaining that i am a very lucky person. that’s pretty much the end of my post. or it should be. there isn’t a day that goes by that i am not grateful for all that i have- not just materialistic- but contentment with family (for the most part) and friends and with the world at large. i am making the attempt to truly understand the world situation and the debacle that has put america on the brink of total collapse- and i am attempting to become at peace with the information that this planet is collapsing as a whole. now, i say attempt because it isn’t quite that easy. i am digging in and going for enlightenment- and that’s the next path on my life’s journey.

many folks know about the buddhist philosophy that life is in flux and nothing is permanent. when you truly look at the bigger picture- and you realize that humans have ultimately caused their own demise (as well as countless other species) of a planet that is probably billions of years old- it’s quite a bit to take in. it has taken me a long while to parse through my thoughts because in a short span of time- my whole world was turned upside down. my entire belief system and the way i lived my life- was gone. i decided to turn to buddhist tenets as a way to bring peace to myself. by learning about the four noble truths and the eightfold path- i opened my mind to peace. now, that’s not to say i am a buddhist. nope. i am not falling into the category of ‘religion’ or labels.

i am a pilgrim seeking nirvana

pilgrim seeking truth
no light found only darkness-
bittersweet summer.

so- here i am trying to change the world and save humanity- but i have to start with me.  i have no one to pray to or abdicate responsibility to- it’s just me.  i have to look myself in the mirror every day and i have to pick myself back up when i fall.  i can see why the monotheistic religions are so popular.